Saturday, January 7, 2012

...you never give up.

I'm getting help from the eating disorders program. I have a counsellor and a dietitian and I see them a couple of times each every month. I've done this before. It didn't help, mainly because I quit. But I've committed the next six months of my life. I've promised that I won't quit and that I'll do more than just put in the time. I've promised to make an effort.

Their way of doing things is so far from the way I usually do things, that it feels like I'm doing nothing at all. I've been seeing them for about a month now and so far, we haven't even advanced past the menu planning stage. We're not even all that focused on following a meal plan at this point. Just having one. You'd think that would be easy, but it's not. But I'm not supposed to focus on what I'm not doing right, only what I am doing right.

I don't know if this will work. I have my doubts...but T and C know about them and they still seem to think they can help. So we'll see where this goes.