I wonder if this will be the year?

I turn 40 this year. I weigh more than I ever have in my life. I've been referred (again) to the eating disorders program by my family doctor for treatment of binge eating/compulsive overeating.

I hope to all that's holy that this is my rock bottom. It certainly feels like rock bottom. I'm ready to start the long climb out of this wretched life. I really hope this is the year at all clicks.